Lighting Them Up

Lighting them up
One at a time
Thinking
Always thinking
What it means
Now
What it meant

Then

Afraid to say yes
Afraid to say no

There’s always
A point
When I close
My eyes
Forgetting
Every thought
Every scene

Relived in dreams
That never speak
The truth

Wondering
How deep the hurt
Was really felt
Wishing
It was never found

By them

That make up
A part of life
No longer lived
Moving through
Moments
That pass like taxis
At 2am

So many people
Speak so many words
That drip
Off the faucet
And wake me up
At midnight

My words
So many words
That burned like acid
On my tongue
Tasting sweet
On theirs

A bittersweet union
Of desperate highway
Desire

There are no promises
Which live forever
There are no commitments
That stand unbreakable
By time
By faith
By trust

Lighting them up
One at a time
Walking
Always walking
Toward a face
Not hers
Toward a heart
Not theirs

~ by bindo on April 10, 2009.